Hello. My name is Gretchen, and I'm a discipline avoider.
It's that simple, really.
And these past 2 weeks or so have been full of discipline opportunities. I will not pretend that I have a life so difficult or uncommon. That's not the case. The deal is, the past two weeks of treading water just to get everything done have given me a renewed perspective regarding seasons of life, how I need to spend my time, and, well...discipline.
So, why haven't I been blogging? Gladdy you asked. I haven't been blogging because I've been busy. Not monumentally so. Just, juggling. Going from this volleyball game to that. Dragging my soon-to-be-pumped-up buttocks to the gym (and those of my son, as well--I hope that didn't sound tawdry). Taking care of Big as he recovered from a nasty, but-we-think-it-will-be-great-in-the-long-run surgery. Getting little sleep. Helping with homework. Meal planning. Bible study. Play rehearsal. Laundry. And really, after doing all that, I haven't had much to say. Nothing new, nothing edifying for anyone to read (hello, that was pretty indulgent), nothing for which I wanted to sit down and give the 45 minutes to an hour to process and type.
I'm glad for times like these--sort of thinky times--where i don't blog, but am fed by others' blogs. I'm also glad for times when I don't read anyone's blog and allow the silence to envelope me, such that I give Him space to speak into my life. I'm glad that I felt like writing something today. And though I am a consumate discipline avoider, I'm thankful for His new mercies each day such that I can repent of slacking, and focus on Him and His plans for me. Moment by moment. Whether sweating on the elliptical or making dinner for "those people". ;)
This is my life. This is my season. And I consider it joy.
