I did turn off comments for the cookie post, though, because i didn't want to seem like i was fishing. As a mom of a 5th grader (my youngest), I realized that this is probably the last classroom party she'll have. At least the last one where parents are involved on any scale. And I found myself feeling sad about that. How did we get from preschool to the brink of adolescence? So I suppose all the "cookie angst" had something to do with that. And if you think this is more about me and less about her, you'd be right. I suppose, I'm growing up, too. Decorating the cookies is actually an idea I got from a sweet friend whose mom started the tradition with her, and who now does it for her son. I made the mistake of asking what bakery she used--"Oh, no. I just make them." :0) Right. So 2 things are established: 1. If I do this again, I'll buy the proper tools, not some cheap-o lying sack of frosting. and 2. I'm not bloody likely to do this again. We all have our strengths, no?
So, i'm also feeling not so svelte and very unattractive. That doesn't help.
And the piece de resistance of my week? My annual check up is tomorrow. There I can not only face the scale, but also the mascara brush, which goes where no mascara brush should go. Evah. And let's not forget the snap of the latex gloves, not only checking my girl regions, but my nether-no-one-should-ever-see-let-alone-touch bum bum. Thankfully, C. is a nurse practitioner who has
So...annual check up. It also represents the fact that I'm simply not where I would like to be health wise. I had a nice cry in RHonda, the minivan on the way home from taking J. to school, and told God I needed Him more than ever for (shall I count the ways?):
- self (or God) discipline in really scheduling my work outs/walks and doing them.
- doing better at healthful meals for the fam. I am an example. Darn it. I've been doing great on meal planning, but other than soups and salads sans cream, the casserole thang has been calling my name for ease and comfort (and no complaining from the fam).
- patience with self and others
- taking care of myself so I can take care of others and not seeing this as selfish. major re-thinking/re-taping needed.
- forgiveness and grace when i fall. whether in parenting or eating or wif-ing, or any task which I attempt.
So...while not completely in a funk--who could be in a funk when going to Maui for 6 days?--having a garden variety $h!tty week.
Mercy and grace, Lord. Please. And thank You, Lord. Thank You for the not-so-good. It's easy to thank You for the rest, and I do. But thank You for this.
